Day 49: May 24

This freakin day. Let me tell ya. I kind of put myself through a ringer. Crawled up inside my own head and just sat staring at the walls hoping they would tell me something other than 'you are a complete idiot'. They did not. The more I stared the more those walls spelled out my weaknesses. My inability to keep my mouth shut. My ridiculous need for  approval from all the wrong people, etc.

I was walking down the street to UCB, because apparently that's all I do now, and I was just thinking about my most recent stupidity and how if a thought comes into my head I am perfectly incapable of NOT PUTTING IT INTO ACTION. What in the hell am I doing?! Who do I think I am? Why can't I control my impulses? For the love of all that is good and holy, ERIN, PLEASE shut up. Please stop thinking, please please please be cooler than you are! FOR ONE DAY.

Anyway, I was walking into UCB feeling like a loser and trying real hard to make myself believe otherwise. And then I'm watching this show with all these funny women and I am dying from laughter.
I thought to myself "That's what it looks like to do this thing at a hundred percent." The show was incredible. They were all having so much fun.

The picture isn't great but I was laughing too hard to remember to take a better one. 

On the way back to my car I decided that I am a bad ass. Yes, there are times when I am impulsive and I shouldn't be but really I'm just brave. I do things that might embarrass me later but I had the courage to do them in the moment. And I am carrying that through to the world of comedy. No more of this fifty percent BS. Yay for lessons learned in on area of life carrying through to others!

Here's to failing a lot but being happy no matter what.