Day 66: June 10

Somehow this didn't get published back in June like it was supposed to and I hate my life!

I GOT MY UCB INTERNSHIP ASSIGNMENT!

I am going to see every show ever and will soon be the funniest person you know.

Day 11: June 25

I saw a comedy Q&A panel with Jason Mantzoukas and Seth Mooris and I took notes and cried.

Day 6: July 20

Saw a lot of comedy tonight. Franklin UCB at 8 for Harold night, where I got myself a comp ticket to a show saturday night for telling them about the time I cried on an airplane. Then headed over to Sunset UCB to watch my wonderful friends Erin and Melissa do their musical comedy act.

I realized that watching these Harolds is actually helping me and I definitely need to see more of them.

Day 97: July 11

Too many things today. I sat down to get work done when my friend sent out a drunken group text full of some of my favorites and hilarity ensued. I saw a great dance show at UCB. I hung out with a new friend who made me laugh harder than I have since the last time I hung out with Josh Flowers.
OH and some dude came up behind me and tickled my ear when I was sitting at UCB. When I turned to see who it was and realized it was a stranger I laughed really hard. He thought I was someone else.

Jesus, thank you for comedy. And for chocolate. AND for self sticks.

Day 79 :June 23

Started my UCB internship today. It's the best. The very best. I am so happy. 

Day 68: June 12

Saw the show Fresh Fish at UCB Sunset. It was bomb. I laughed a lot. I gotta get my butt in gear so I can get on that stage. Any stage. ALL STAGES.

Day 63: June 7

My UCB 201 improv show was today. It was awesome. Not perfect but I had so much fun. I am incredibly happy with how out of my head I was :)

This is a photo of my class and what they think of when they hear 'pose sexy'.

Day 62: June 6

Not a funny video but came from a funny show. 

Saw the Dixieland Family Band tonight. It made me feel so many things. Inspired mostly. But also a little bit down because I'm not there yet. The performing regularly part of the program. It has me thinking about a lot of things pertaining to this path I have chosen. Such as: will I ever be satisfied? Will any level of performance make me feel like I am doing all I can? Am I doing the right thing?

Day 60: June 4

I really feel like I should be writing more of my own jokes and making my own videos to share with you all but I just haven't been. 

I have, however, been seeing a ton of shows. Possibly too many. Enough that I now have favorite performers that I am prepared to stalk to every stage. 

BTW if I find you hilarious I am probably in love with you.

Today I actually had to consider this thought:

 "Do I really love improv? Or do I just love the people that do improv and therefore am trying to be good at improv so that those people will like me?" 

Is it okay if it's the latter?  

This 100 Days Project is really great.

Day 54: May 29

Today I found out that I was nominated for a UCB scholarship. 

WHAT?!

I am going crazy over here. More than I need that scholarship, more than I deserve it, I WANT to deserve it. I so want to be worthy of someone trusting me with a large sum of money to strictly put towards my comedy training.

Day 49: May 24

This freakin day. Let me tell ya. I kind of put myself through a ringer. Crawled up inside my own head and just sat staring at the walls hoping they would tell me something other than 'you are a complete idiot'. They did not. The more I stared the more those walls spelled out my weaknesses. My inability to keep my mouth shut. My ridiculous need for  approval from all the wrong people, etc.

I was walking down the street to UCB, because apparently that's all I do now, and I was just thinking about my most recent stupidity and how if a thought comes into my head I am perfectly incapable of NOT PUTTING IT INTO ACTION. What in the hell am I doing?! Who do I think I am? Why can't I control my impulses? For the love of all that is good and holy, ERIN, PLEASE shut up. Please stop thinking, please please please be cooler than you are! FOR ONE DAY.

Anyway, I was walking into UCB feeling like a loser and trying real hard to make myself believe otherwise. And then I'm watching this show with all these funny women and I am dying from laughter.
I thought to myself "That's what it looks like to do this thing at a hundred percent." The show was incredible. They were all having so much fun.

The picture isn't great but I was laughing too hard to remember to take a better one. 

On the way back to my car I decided that I am a bad ass. Yes, there are times when I am impulsive and I shouldn't be but really I'm just brave. I do things that might embarrass me later but I had the courage to do them in the moment. And I am carrying that through to the world of comedy. No more of this fifty percent BS. Yay for lessons learned in on area of life carrying through to others!

Here's to failing a lot but being happy no matter what.

Day 39: May 14

I saw Convoy at UCB. #Masterpiece 

Today I am literally tearing up thinking about it. It was the kind of improv that makes you want to throw yourself into every class you can to be able to perform at that level, at the same time it makes you want to quit altogether because you don't want to embarrass yourself. 

"How do you take notes in the margins of a movie?"

"You watch a movie and write the notes in the margin of any book."