I did it.

I just re read every post in this blog. It was kind of like watching my heart learn to beat. But I was also listening to Ed Sheeran while I read it so I may have been setting the mood a little bit.

It seems silly but this project has changed my life. I am really proud of myself for sticking with it. So if you're actually reading this I hope you're laughing and getting inspired. 

This is a link to how to start your own '100 Days Project.' I highly recommend it. 

And just because I am genuinely obsessed with the new snap back hat I won at six flags here is one last post pulled from my instagram.

It's official. You can have this snap back when you pry it from my cold lifeless fingers.

Also, the Bat symbol is on the front so now I'm a Batman 'ride or die'. 

Day 66: June 10

Somehow this didn't get published back in June like it was supposed to and I hate my life!

I GOT MY UCB INTERNSHIP ASSIGNMENT!

I am going to see every show ever and will soon be the funniest person you know.

Day 22: August 5

Today someone told me I look like I could be on television and instead of saying 'thank you' I said 'words of affirmation isn't my love language.'

Day 21: August 4

There's a typo but I'm still laughing at my own joke. 

Day 20: August 3

I saw this last night.

Seeing shows like this always make me ask myself this question:

'If I never get anywhere in comedy would I want to be in this city where it's in my face every single day? Or would I want to go home and bury my head in the bluegrass and pretend it doesn't exist?'

A month ago the answer might have been a 50/50. Now there's no contest. If I can't do comedy I'll have to watch it. If I can't watch it, I'll die. 

Day 19: August 2

Watched all of 'Wet Hot American Summer' with a group of friends. Really making me look at this physical comedy thing. I wish it made me laugh more. I don't super enjoy it pure physical comedy.

Day 18: August 1

Went to a comedy panel at UCB Sunset with Hot Sauce(Adam Palley, Ben Schwartz, Gil Ozeri). An improv team that has two of my favorite comedians on it plus a guy that I had not heard of but I now consider one of my heroes.

Ben Schwartz said "You have to be obsessed with it." (Comedy) Which made me think "Am I obsessed?"
I started this blog. I took off work to go to the panel last week. I cancelled rehearsal to go to this panel. I'm a WSS at UCB. Something that has never made me feel like I'm giving up my tuesday night for nothing. I am constantly trying to get people to go to shows with me.

But I'm not performing. 

I don't have a team. But I started a practice group. Maybe it's no longer a matter of wether or not I'm obsessed. Now what I need to do is give myself permission to be obsessed. 

Day 17: June 31

Went to 'Show and Tell' tonight. I was briefly in one of the sketches that was a ton of fun to film.

Day 16: June 30

Funny is the new Ryan Gosling.

Day 15: June 29

Am I single because I refuse to laugh at puns?

Day 14: June 28

I learned to be a strong independent woman from Lola Rabbit... I mean like also the women in my family but no one calls me doll.

Day 13: June 27

I will always swipe left on Tinder when I see a dude in looking like he's having fun in cold weather.

Day 12: June 26

Today I said TO MYSELF 'So that's the plan, Master Flex. Break'
Then went into the grocery store.
Who is Master Flex? Why does he/she need to know my grocery store plan? WHY AM I CONFESSING ANY OF THIS?

This was a cheating post. From yesterday. I was at 6 flags today and I remember nothing cus of tired.

 

Day 11: June 25

I saw a comedy Q&A panel with Jason Mantzoukas and Seth Mooris and I took notes and cried.

Day 10: July 24

The joke is truly on me.

Day 9: July 23

You make one comment about how you empathize with the antagonist from Jack and the Beanstalk and suddenly The government has you on a list.

But seriously folks I have no idea what I did to be called a 'Giants Fan'.

Day 8: July 22

Improv 301 class number 3.

As with so many things I have been running into the problem of unwillingness to commit. Go all in.
Because that truly requires so much of me. Then what if I commit and hate it after a month? A month wasted! But the thing is it won't have been wasted. It will be time spent not wondering if this is what I want.

Day 7: July 21

One of the first people I met and hung out with in Los Angeles convinced me that I had plenty of room to park my car. We still count it as a win.

Day 6: July 20

Saw a lot of comedy tonight. Franklin UCB at 8 for Harold night, where I got myself a comp ticket to a show saturday night for telling them about the time I cried on an airplane. Then headed over to Sunset UCB to watch my wonderful friends Erin and Melissa do their musical comedy act.

I realized that watching these Harolds is actually helping me and I definitely need to see more of them.

Day 5: July 19

Well do you?

Day 4: July 18

My plans for the night?
1. Finish Season 2 of Bojack Horseman.
2. Sit in the emptiness known only by those who binge watch television.

Day 3: July 17

I am fairy certain that I could sue Apple over the traumatic stress those typing bubbles have caused.

Day 2: July 16

Saw some awesome standup AND my new favorite musical improv team: Magic to do.

#boringpost #wastootired

Day 1(You're going to be confused if you're just now reading): July 16

I was a guest on a podcast for the first time today. SO MUCH FUN. The most fun. I think it was the first time I was in a group of funny people where I wasn't incredibly self conscious about everything I said. I can't wait to do it again.

Day 100: July 14

I watched Jurassic World. Mostly loved it but was incredibly distracted by the fact that Chris Pratt poured gasoline over himself at the beginning of the movie and then NEVER CHANGED HIS CLOTHES. He and Claire would have passed out from the fumes long before they lived to save everybody. 



Side Note:
I messed up. I should have just started on day one and then gone at my own pace and not worried about looking like I was keeping up with everyone. STUPID. 

So tomorrow will be Day 1 and then I will have 24 days after that. I gotta admit I was really sad to type out that 'Day 100.' I don't want it to be over. I feel like I have really become funnier through this project. I've learned what I think about funny and what makes me laugh. 

24 more days, everybody. 

Is there anyone out there who has been quietly stalking this blog for the past 75 days? Or are all those views from people searching the random labels I put on the side?

Day 99: July 13

Dating in Los Angeles: The Early Years

And no I was not previously married. I made a joke about being married hoping he'd take a hint and back it up. Then he just went full court press.

Day 98: July 12

I'm watching Bitten on netflix. It's not funny. I shouldn't be watching it. I should be sleeping because I have to get up early(ish) to celebrate my friend's birthday. It's a garbage show. Why do I watch garbage shows? I watched all of Dawson's Creek you guys. And then I went back and just watched the Pacey and Joey scenes. I'm sick.

Day 97: July 11

Too many things today. I sat down to get work done when my friend sent out a drunken group text full of some of my favorites and hilarity ensued. I saw a great dance show at UCB. I hung out with a new friend who made me laugh harder than I have since the last time I hung out with Josh Flowers.
OH and some dude came up behind me and tickled my ear when I was sitting at UCB. When I turned to see who it was and realized it was a stranger I laughed really hard. He thought I was someone else.

Jesus, thank you for comedy. And for chocolate. AND for self sticks.

Day 96: July 10

If when making me, God had said, 

"You are going to be a comedian no matter what. I will, however, give you a choice between being a goofy looking white dude whose main problem will be figuring out how many times you can make a noncommittal noise before they stop laughing. OR you can be an adorable little girl with no problem finding dates on tinder but will ultimately have to work much harder to figure out what her type of funny really is while staying out of her head, dodging dick jokes, AND being torn between flattered and outraged whenever someone says ‘it’s okay because you’re pretty.’”

 I honestly don't know what I'd choose.

Day 95: July 9

Welcome to ‪#‎AWeekOfGrace‬.

Tonight Grace has not yet come home to tell me if my top matches my new jacket so I can't leave the apartment.

Day 94: July 8

Someone looked at my outfit and said "Casual. Love it." Exactly that.
What I heard was "You wore that to the public places?"

Day 93: July 7

Nothin funny today except my lack of self respect. And a story that I won't be able to tell for another three years.

Day 92: July 6

John Corrigan

Day 91: July 5

I hand my id to the bouncer.

He looks at it a little longer than usual and makes a funny face.

"Something wrong?"

"Huh? Oh. No. You just live close to me."

Cool, man. So... Did you just, like, take a moment to memorize the address?

Day 90: July 4

I'm tired. What a great time to start working out some issues.

As I've said before I generally tell a story from its funniest angle. Looking to make the listener laugh. I've discovered that this is something I also do with my emotions. If I am slightly dismayed over a boy I will crank it up to 11 in order to be the most entertaining me I can be. 

Being entertaining is great but what is this doing to me ultimately? What negative side effects am I experiencing by always needing to be 'on'?

Always seeking the laughter of others to boost my self confidence?

What parts of this are unhealthy? What parts of this are absolutely wonderful and necessary to being me?

I am one tired little otter. I tend to be all reflective in this state. Like a drunken Socrates. Does that make sense? Did anyone this make sense? Have you figured out how To balance this need for approval with the fact that this is just how you were designed to be most alive?

Day 89: July 3

Just conquering auto correct with my immaculate wit. 

Day 88: July 2

It is a funny video but also a serious question.

It's a nonsense word.

Day 87: July 1

Today I laughed and told jokes about things that I won't be posting to a public forum. 

Childhood traumas that are effecting my adult life. So the question becomes was the laughter healthy? Or was the laughter a way to avoid dealing? Will these questions get answered or will I avoid dealing with the fact that I might be avoiding dealing?

Day 86: June 30

I never knew how much I wanted to know that I'm funny until people started telling me I am funny.

Starting this project was unnerving. I didn't think I would have enough ideas to keep it up. But it's been the opposite. Once I started writing things down more things started lining up to be let out. 

Day 85: June 29

Today is a reflection of yesterday. I spent ten hours on the beach with about 15 of the world's most wonderful humans. I laughed so hard at so many things. I was surrounded by people that I WANTED to be surrounded by. We played survivor. My body is sore but my spirit is so full and satisfied.

My phone got a little bit of salt water in it and shut down for the day. It was a bummer but it didn't tarnish a single part of that beautiful day. New friends. So much joy.

Day 84: June 28

I woke up at 7:30 to get groceries and gas before driving to Calabasas. 

Sorry for making you read this. 

I just felt like a hero.

Day 83: June 27

I laughed so hard on this drive. 

Day 82: June 26

There was a giant to do about gay marriage today. 

I'm not sure who this video offends but I do know that it always makes me laugh. 

Sorry?

Day 81: June 25

"Is love just not wanting to murder someone?"

-Josh Flowers

He said a lot of funny things in that conversation but this was the only one I thought to write down.

Day 80: June 24

The day I laughed the hardest I have ever laughed I was with Josh Flowers. I ended up throwing up my apple pie because I couldn't breathe. It was documented.

The beginning of a beautiful friendship.

Day 79 :June 23

Started my UCB internship today. It's the best. The very best. I am so happy. 

Day 78 :June 22

IT IS OUT

Day 77: June 21

I have to work twice as hard to be as funny as I am cus this guy loved me so stinkin much. The only daddy issues I have are all about hoping he knows that my life is brilliant because of him. Happy Father's Day!

Day 76: June 20

Society can you please just let me walk to the mailbox in snowflake pajama pants and an 'I Only Date Superheroes T-shirt'?

Day 75: June 19

If you'd like to go through all the stages of drunkenness in 40 minutes don't drink for months, then drink one Long Island iced tea in 15 minutes, dance as hard as you can for 10 minutes, dance slightly less hard for 5 more minutes as you try to convince yourself that you won't be sick and then enjoy as your friends bring you water and rub ice cubes on your face. 
Friends sold separately.

Day 74: June 18

My promo confession video for 'Penny for Your Thoughts'.

Day 73: June 17

After two years this is being released.

Day 72: June 16

I got a little backed up on posting so I don't remember what happened on this day. I'm sure it was funny. So many funny things. I am overflowing with funny things. I have videos to make and post. They're getting piled up and it's great and I love it. Here is a list of the words on my white board that are supposed to remind me to make these videos:

Fleek

AAA

shia

feminsit shakespeare

Day 71: June 15

I finished Orange is the New Black.

Day 70: June 14

Having problems that aren't funny or severe enough to start a hashtag trending.

#secondworldproblems

Day 69: June 13

I am constantly trying to wear dresses. But the moment I put one on I think 'What if I have the opportunity to climb something today?' and have to change.

Day 68: June 12

Saw the show Fresh Fish at UCB Sunset. It was bomb. I laughed a lot. I gotta get my butt in gear so I can get on that stage. Any stage. ALL STAGES.

Day 67: June 11

Because in Los Angeles you can be watching any $5 improv show and have the possibility of Wayne Brady showing up to blow your mind with his fresh rhymes.

I have never been happier.

Day 65: June 9

Day 65: Is it weird that I took a photo from soda jerk's Facebook page only to block out all faces that don't belong to Bed Leddick? Maybe.
But who cares?! Ben is leaving! One of my favorite performers in the city is moving away.
I always know a scene is going to be funny if he's involved and Im definitely going to miss seeing him perform. 
Good luck in Columbus, Ben!

Day 64: June 8

Your roommate is out of town visiting her family and you miss her terribly but then you remember YOU DON'T HAVE TO WEAR PANTS.

Day 63: June 7

My UCB 201 improv show was today. It was awesome. Not perfect but I had so much fun. I am incredibly happy with how out of my head I was :)

This is a photo of my class and what they think of when they hear 'pose sexy'.

Day 62: June 6

Not a funny video but came from a funny show. 

Saw the Dixieland Family Band tonight. It made me feel so many things. Inspired mostly. But also a little bit down because I'm not there yet. The performing regularly part of the program. It has me thinking about a lot of things pertaining to this path I have chosen. Such as: will I ever be satisfied? Will any level of performance make me feel like I am doing all I can? Am I doing the right thing?

Day 61: June 5

Dear Iced Mocha,

Since meeting you my life has never been the same. You're the first thing I think about when I wake up each day. Youre the reason I can't sleep at night. 
You bring coffee to my veins and chocolate to my tongue. And now that my wisdom teeth are coming in with a vengeance you soothe my swollen jaw. 
I love you. More than you'll ever know. More than one Instagram post will ever portray.

Day 60: June 4

I really feel like I should be writing more of my own jokes and making my own videos to share with you all but I just haven't been. 

I have, however, been seeing a ton of shows. Possibly too many. Enough that I now have favorite performers that I am prepared to stalk to every stage. 

BTW if I find you hilarious I am probably in love with you.

Today I actually had to consider this thought:

 "Do I really love improv? Or do I just love the people that do improv and therefore am trying to be good at improv so that those people will like me?" 

Is it okay if it's the latter?  

This 100 Days Project is really great.

Day 59: June 3

The essays are in. I am happy with the work I did on them. And I can finally get back to spending real time on my 100 Days Project.

On an unrelated note I have conditioned myself to be unashamed about pooping in public. I don't understand the people who can hold it in. Aren't you dying on the inside?!

Day 58: June 2

Got a message from my kentucky bestie today. We are finally going to release a hilarious video we made two years ago. But those are all the details you get because MY ESSAYS ARE DUE TOMORROW and I am buggin.

Day 57: June 1

This makes me laugh more than it should.

Day 56: May 31

Worked on my scholarship essays. And saw Search History again. Sorry. That's all you get. All of my brain power is going toward these essays.

Day 55: May 30

Had quite the time on set with these wonderful dummies. 

Day 54: May 29

Today I found out that I was nominated for a UCB scholarship. 

WHAT?!

I am going crazy over here. More than I need that scholarship, more than I deserve it, I WANT to deserve it. I so want to be worthy of someone trusting me with a large sum of money to strictly put towards my comedy training.

Day 53: May 28

I like to think that if my state were truly about to fall into the ocean, the government would at least take out an ad on instagram with the evacuation plan.

Day 52: May 27

My favorite thing.

Day 51: May 26

I told my friend about a date I went on. 

When I was done with the story I expressed that I was disappointed that the guy hasn't called me since the date. 

My friend said "What? You wanted him to call you? It sounds like you had a bad time."

I said, "No. I had a really good time. But good dates aren't funny."

Apparently I now, only tell stories from their funniest angle. 

Day 50: May 25

Today I got to see a bunch of comedians play knock out on a basketball court.

I'm sorry I didn't take pictures.

Day 49: May 24

This freakin day. Let me tell ya. I kind of put myself through a ringer. Crawled up inside my own head and just sat staring at the walls hoping they would tell me something other than 'you are a complete idiot'. They did not. The more I stared the more those walls spelled out my weaknesses. My inability to keep my mouth shut. My ridiculous need for  approval from all the wrong people, etc.

I was walking down the street to UCB, because apparently that's all I do now, and I was just thinking about my most recent stupidity and how if a thought comes into my head I am perfectly incapable of NOT PUTTING IT INTO ACTION. What in the hell am I doing?! Who do I think I am? Why can't I control my impulses? For the love of all that is good and holy, ERIN, PLEASE shut up. Please stop thinking, please please please be cooler than you are! FOR ONE DAY.

Anyway, I was walking into UCB feeling like a loser and trying real hard to make myself believe otherwise. And then I'm watching this show with all these funny women and I am dying from laughter.
I thought to myself "That's what it looks like to do this thing at a hundred percent." The show was incredible. They were all having so much fun.

The picture isn't great but I was laughing too hard to remember to take a better one. 

On the way back to my car I decided that I am a bad ass. Yes, there are times when I am impulsive and I shouldn't be but really I'm just brave. I do things that might embarrass me later but I had the courage to do them in the moment. And I am carrying that through to the world of comedy. No more of this fifty percent BS. Yay for lessons learned in on area of life carrying through to others!

Here's to failing a lot but being happy no matter what.

Day 48: May 23

I performed an entire Harold in my dream, while Jennifer Lawrence looked on.

For those of you not in the know a Harold is a form of long form improv.

This particular Harold was pretty much a disaster. Although I, personally, got a chuckle out of Miss Lawrence.

The improv was bad but I fought through it. In my dream I decided not to be defeated by my complete lack of ability to be funny or remember anything I have ever learned in improv class. I'm feeling pretty good about me right now.

Day 47: May 22

I made this video. I don't feel like it's my best work but I'm posting it because I have to. 

Day46: May 21

Gaaaahahhh. I'm cheating for this day. I mean it's technically not cheating but I didn't have to try very hard sooooo…. it FEELS like cheating.

This is one of my very favorite comedy albums. 

In high school one of my best friend would text me 'A light bulb, a mason jar, some mice' and I would lose it. Every. Time. 

The way he crafts his jokes is pretty brilliant and definitely something I try to use in my own stuff. 

Day 45: May 20

How my online dating profile makes me look versus what you experience on the first date.

Day 44: May 19

Saw 'The Black Agenda'.

Felt reeeeeeeaaaaaallll out of place with all those men on stage. 

Day 43: May 18

I once wore this into a Cracker Barrel.

Day 42: May 17

I have always hated this song. Just because it's a catchy tune about a woman needing to beg someone another woman to not take her man. WHAT?!

Day 41: May 16

Since I have been a little behind on updating this I just realized that I forgot to include an excellent stand up show I saw on monday! Which works out because I can't remember anything funny from yesterday.

The venue was small (and a little creepy). The audience was also small, made up mostly of the comics themselves. (I don't know where all the commas belong in that sentence and I DON'T CARE). 

But they were all REALLY funny. Not a single comedian that I didn't enjoy watching. 

It was a really great look into the world of stand-up. I'm pretty sure none of them were getting paid for this gig. And yet they were all still there. Which leads me to believe that the art of stand up is a labor of true love. 

Day 40: May 15

 This team. These guys and gal. Are some of my favorite people in the city. Soda Jerk was one of the first teams that opened my eyes to the beauty of improv. Knowing the people on a team adds a whole new layer to the laughter. I love being able to see them so regularly. 

Day 39: May 14

I saw Convoy at UCB. #Masterpiece 

Today I am literally tearing up thinking about it. It was the kind of improv that makes you want to throw yourself into every class you can to be able to perform at that level, at the same time it makes you want to quit altogether because you don't want to embarrass yourself. 

"How do you take notes in the margins of a movie?"

"You watch a movie and write the notes in the margin of any book."

Day 38: May 13

Oh my GOSH. I saw Eliza Skinner's "Turnt Up" at UCB and it was the most awe inspiring thing I have ever seen in my life. You WILL see me comedic battle rapping in the near future. 

I couldn't find a video of her rapping but her stand up is also hilarious. I want to be her. Or just like… carry her stuff around for her.  

Day 37: May 12

My coworkers are currently trying to teach the beta fish in our break room to not beat up the female beta they just added to the bowl.

Day 35: May 10

I feel like I have talked about this a million times before but since it's mother's day and it's true I will say it again.

My mom taught me so many things but one of my favorites is that you have to laugh at yourself. 

She was always the first person to look at something embarrassing she had done and laugh hysterically. She often peed herself in the process.

When she laughed it was silent. Mouth wide open, eyes closed and watering, shoulders shaking. Making her laugh was one of my favorite things.

Here's to you, Momma Bear. My funny bone is that much…. sharper? Whatever. I'm grateful. 

Day 36: May 11

Day 34: May 9

This shot brought to you by road rage and the new phone mount for my car. 

Stay in your lane Los Angeles.

Day 33: May 8

This post isn't funny but it just makes me so happy to think about.
I love Jesus. He's my favorite. For the past couple years I have been struggling with the idea of 'doing what God wants me to do'. I would pray and wrestle and mull it over and it just kept seeming like I was being directed toward Los Angeles. Acting. Comedy. Performing. But that couldn't be right because there are people in Malaysia who need to be fed! I need to be doing things that MATTER.
In the past couple of months I have been accepting the fact that I get to stay and work in Los Angeles. I get to do comedy and act and be happy about it!

This past week I was overwhelmed with all of the people in this city and industry that I get to love and inspire and be hopeful about. In the past two years of prayers I never really felt like God was telling me that I just needed to love LA. I felt like He was telling me to do what my heart wanted to do. To trust that my heart was seeking Him.

God wasn't concerned with how I would help the world. He knew I wanted to do that. He wasn't doubting my motives. I was.
 He was concerned with me understanding that He loved me and He is incredibly invested in my happiness.

Day 32: May 7

I wrote a sketch. I wrote it from the pain of being flirt blocked. I've never really written comedy out of my pain before and I'm pretty excited for what the future holds with this new ability.

It's called "Janine" because whenever I say that name I want to say spit it out. Sorry, Janine :/

I don't know this woman but she was the first image  up when I googled 'Janine'

Day 31: May 6

Today's improv class was the most difficult yet. I take comfort in the fact that everyone was struggling with the concepts. 

The big take away from the experience is that I was so excited to be failing because I knew it would only make me better in the long run. I must really love this. 

Day 30: May 5

"I guess I'm just too pretty for improv."

"That is definitely not true."

Day 29: May 4

I have often been told that people on stage can hear me laughing and pick me out of the crowd but this is my favorite thing that has been said about it:

"You have the best real laugh that sound fake."

And then when he thought he might have insulted me, he attempted to save it with:

"It sounds like an old black man."

I kind of love that description. 

Day 28: May 3

"I've been through so much since moving to Los Angeles. I've changed. I've grown. I've become open to dating guys who wear tank tops."

Day 27: May 2

 'On a scale of 8-9 you're a loser'.
When I get around to writing a stand up act I'm pretty sure I'll have a solid ten minute set based on the antics of my favorite person on the planet. 
This girl is the funniest person I have ever known. But I guess that's happens when I'm your Big Sister Aunt. Love you, Lyno!

Day 26: May 1

Day 26: Friday May 1st

I was GOING to post about his hit song 'Blowin Me Up' but when I searched for it on youtube I came across this sweet vid. I watched it 5 times in a row and discovered new reasons to laugh each time. 

Day 25: April 30

I saw Pete Holmes perform last night and it was every bit as wonderful as I thought it would be.
But that isn't what Day 25 is about.

I was discussing my personality with Roommate Grace and she paid me a wonderful compliment.

Day 24: April 29

I'm going to be posting to twitter, instagram, and Facebook. This will be the place for all of the days to accumulate.

On DAY 24 I got to see Erich Tamola. For 20 minutes my life was pure joy. It was the kind of laughter that comes from seeing a very funny friend that you only get to see once every couple of months.

Day 23: April 28

I'm not going to skip the first 22 days I'm just going to do them after everyone else is finished with the project. Orrrrrr I might mix them into the days as I go. Who knows? Not me. I barely want to do this.

Lie.

Confession: I really want to do this but I'm certain that it will be awful and that I won't make anyone laugh. Which is something that I just have to be okay with. Everyone who has made any name for themselves in the world of comedy has BOMBED. A lot.
And as far as I can tell from interviews, all of my favorite comedians have felt(and often still feel like) unfunny, unloved hacks.

So my hope for this 100 Days Project of mine is to put some really embarrassing unfunny stuff out there. Maybe perform at an open mic night.

If all else fails I'll just talk about my dating history. Because everyone loves a good tinder-gone-wrong story.

Also, whether you laughed or not I'm counting this as my post for the day.


My name is,
Erin